June 12, 2008
9:00pm: I was a bit alarmed because there's been an increased on my vaginal discharge since I've entered my 36th week of pregnancy. Though based on what I read, It's normal especially when D-DAY is getting near. Hubby and I decided to see my OB coz I'm a bit scared. I'm getting paranoid. I kept on thinking that those discharges are coming from my baby's amniotic fluid, that he might be in danger..
9:30pm: We reached OB's clinic. Luckily, we're her last patient. She conducted an internal exam and told me everything's ok, that my waterbag is still intact. But after a few more tries, she told me that I'm 2 cm dilated!! I'm a bit shocked but excited at the same time.. I'm gonna give birth soon! ;) as per OB's advise, I have to go home, take a bath, eat my heart's content, pack our things and be ready for the big battle!
10:00pm: Hubby and I did what we need to do. We also walked for 30 minutes hoping that my cervix would dilate by 3cm. After 30 minutes of walking, I felt nothing.. not even a single contraction. I got desperate so we walked and walked and walked...
11:00pm: My mom is constantly checking me, asking me for any labor signs.. then I said I had a few.. She advised me not to go to the hospital at once. I have to wait for the contractions to set in.
June 13, 2008
2:00am: I can't sleep anymore. I felt contractions but not as intense as other people described how real labor pain should be, plus the interval is long and contractions are irregular.
4:00am: I woke up hubby, my mom and my dad. I finally decided that I can wait no longer. My Dad drove us to the hospital and my mom stayed at home, she told me that she can't bear to see me in pain..
4:30am: We reached the hospital, we went straight to the delivery room. My hubby was advised to go to the admitting section then to the waiting room.
4:45am: I entered the labor room. Changed into hospital gown. Done series of tests and hooked with an IV incorporated by 10 units of oxytocin in aid for my cervical dilatation.
5:00am: an OB resident had me examined, told that I was 3 cm then another OB came to interview me about my OB history.. etc.
7:25am: Another OB resident came and told me I was 4cm dilated. Real labor contractions are now starting to set in.. but still, I find it tolerable..
past 9:00am: I'm starting to feel the urge to push for every contraction I have. The pain is getting stronger and stronger, contractions are getting intense and intervals are getting shorter! I'm starting to feel that I was like entering hell!!
10:30am: I can't take the pain anymore. I asked the nurses to call my OB at once! i kept on saying that I'm gonna poop!! I'm gonna poop! can't hold it anymore! Then an OB resident assured me that my OB's well informed about my situation and she keeps on explaining that I need to reach 10cm in order to push. OH MY GOD! I can't described the hell that I'm into!! For every contraction, I'm squeezing the "Lord of Pardon" booklet that my mom gave me that she also used when she had me before.
11:00am: I'm literally screaming in pain!!! the OB resident decided to put me to the delivery table and had me examined again. I was 8cm dilated! still, I can't push with every contraction! She had me "prepped" for the procedure but encouraged me to pant blow instead of pushing. The nurse injected nubain for pain but as if it doesn't work at all!
12:00pm: I thought I'm gonna die!!! I was lying there in the delivery table, waiting for my OB to arrive.. still, I can't push with every contraction since my bag of water is still intact!! I asked my nurse, who will perform my amniotomy? then she told me, you're a nurse? then I said yes.. in an instant, flock of nurses surrounded me.. asking me questions! oh my.. I dunno if I'll get irritated or what!
12:10pm: Resident OB had my amniotomy (pricked my water bag) then told me to push with every contractions! FINALLY! I pushed every chance I have!!! I was sooo exhausted, hungry, thirsty and in deep pain but still I'm trying my best to push! I gave all the energy that I have!!
12:26pm: FINALLY!!!! after 20+ hard pushes, my little prince has arrived!!! (ASHTON MIKHAIL NEBRE-MALABONGA, wt: 7.4 lbs, ht: 50cm, gender: male) As soon as I saw him and heard him cry, I felt that every inch of those grueling moments of my life was all worth it!!! then I passed-out! I woke up 3 hours after.. finding myself in the recovery room..I almost thought I can't make it through but GOD is sooo good! Thank you LORD!! ;)
Here are the list of my baby wishlist as of now! and I just found out that I'm having a baby boy!!! awww.. I love all these! parang ang mahal kasi though I heard good feedbacks about these stuffs.. still, ang mahal niya dito sa philippines! I dunno where can I get the money for these gears... and another thing.. There are lots of cute stuffs for our little angels over the market but im really eyeing for all these.. I still want a bouncer and a playmat and a swing... the list goes on.. but for now.. these would all be fine.. Avent IQ24 electric steam sterilizer - 
Graco pack and play in kasbah  Graco quattro tour system in kasbah 
Here's the checklist for my newborn's needs: I dunno if that's complete though.. **Layettes 1 dozen bird's eye nappies –Still thinking if I’ll buy pa or not.. 6 tie-sides sleeveless 6 tie-sides with sleeves 6 tie-sides longsleeves 6 pairs of mittens 3 pairs of booties 6 pairs of socks 3 bonnets/caps - napasobra ng 2 yung bili.. ;P 6 bibs – so far I have 2 cute bibs pa lang.. I’ll buy more pa! ;) 6 pcs. bigkis/binder 9 pcs pajamas 9 pcs. shorts 12 pcs. rompers 3 hooded receiving blankets 2 hooded towels 3 washcloth 3 frogsuits – kulang pa ng 1 DISNEY frogsuit! **Feeding – still waiting for my balikbayan box! ;) 3 4oz feeding bottle and 6 9oz feeding bottles Pacifier and clip Bottle brush Milk travel dispenser Sterilizer Bottle rack/keeper Breast pump- I prefer the manual ones.. **Beddings Comforter – kulang pa ng 1 pang comforter! Mickey na RED! Bolster pillow Head pillow Bolster and pillow cases- kulang pa ng 1!! **Bathing/grooming Newborn Diapers Bath Tub Bath sponge Top to Toe wash- I think its included on our hospital welcome kit! Ethyl Alcohol 70% Large cotton Baby Wipes Nail clipper Q-tip Baby oil **others - Thermometer- I think its included on our hospital welcome kit! Nasal Aspirator Drapolene/desitin cream Diaper Bag Plastic container for clothes Manzanilla for colic Bottle cleaner/ detergent for clothes –Perwoll or cycles?! 1 pc. Rubbermat/diaper pad 2 pcs. hamper did i miss anything?!
LABOR BAG Essential List FOR MOM: 5 dusters 4 pairs socks going home outfit (duster type or maternity clothes and leggings) 12 pcs. of underwear 4pcs. bra feminine wash Bathing essential (facial wash, toothbrush, toothpaste, shampoo, soap , deodorant) tissues 2 adult diaper/underpads 2 packs of maternity pads alcohol 3 pcs. face towel bag (cash, celfone, charger, rosary, foundation & lipstick) ponytail/headband slippers FOR NEWBORN: 3 bonnets 3 tie sides short and long sleeves going home clothes: 1 frogsuit 6 pj's 2 hooded receiving blankets 3 pairs of mittens and socks 8 pcs. NB diapers 3 pcs. 4oz sterilized feeding bottles distilled water top to toe wash wet tissue cotton breast pump FOR DADDY: clothes (undies, shirt, shorts, slippers) 2 pillows 2 blanket
Extra needs: Snacks & Drinks termos/electric pot Eating needs: disposable cups, spoon and fork and plates camera & charger Documents for PHILHEALTH Did I miss something?!
 | how? | Jul 19, '07 4:18 AM for everyone |
How do you teach a lost and wounded heart to find its way back to love? How do you tell a fighter the battle is over and that it is enough? How do you convince someone hopeless to give it again a try? How will you let an angel who gave up a wing for you fly?
How do you prepare yourself to wake up the next morning knowing you’ll again die? How will you let a lifelong dream just pass you by? How do you forgive after your world has been torn apart? How do you walk away with strength taken from your heart?
How do you give up on a reason you’ve been holding on just to keep you alive? How do you turn your back on a purpose you’ve been searching all your life? How do you snap yourself back to reality after diligently believing the magic was true? How do you let go of a prayer God had answered specially for you?
Why do beginnings have an end? Why do we have to meet only to lose in the end? These are questions left unanswered, word left unsaid, letters left unread, poems left undone, songs left unsung, love left unexpressed, promises left unfulfilled. In a relationship, one of the hardest things to do is saying goodbye and letting go. It's as hard as breaking a crystal because you’ll never know when you’ll be able to pick up the pieces again. More often than not, they who go feel not the pain of parting; it is they who stay behind that suffer, because they are left with memories of love that was meant to be a love that was. At the beginning and at the end of a relationship, we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone. Unfair as it may seem, but that’s the drama, the bittersweet and the risk of falling in love. After all, nothing is constant but change. Everything will eventually come to its end without us knowing when, without us even knowing why and we must forget not because we want to but because we have to. In letting go, sorrows come not as single spy but in battalion. It seems that everywhere you go, everything you do, every song you hear, every turn of your head, every move of your body, every beat of your heart, every blink of your eye and every breath you take always remind you of him. It’s like a stab of a knife, a torture in the night. Funny how the whole world becomes depopulated when only one person is missing. Just imagine there are four billion people on earth and yet it seems you feel lonely and empty without the other. I don’t know if it’s worth calling an art, but letting go entails special skills sparkled with a considerable space and time. Time heals wounds but it takes push on our part. Acceptance plays a part. Not all wishes come true. Not all love stories end with “happily ever after.” We hate to suffer if it would mean happiness to others. We have to cry to temporarily let go of the pain. Every beginning has its end like every dawn has its dusk. It’s something we can’t control, something we have to live up with. It’s over, he’s gone. But life has to go on. Goodbye doesn’t always mean forever. There will always be a place and time where questions will be answered, words will be spoken, letters will be read, poems will be recited in the night, songs will be sung in harmony, love will be expressed in solitude and promises will be fulfilled. Somewhere, somehow, someday.
Things that is so hard to do.. 1. Flashing your smile to someone you don't want to see.. 2. Bringing back the feeling you've learned to forget.. 3. Showing that you care.. 4. Finding a way to mend a broken heart.. 5. Learning that you've been used by someone you truly love.. 6. Saying "I Love You" when you mean it and when you don't.. 7. Letting go of a person you've just learned to love.. 8. Realizing that you love somebody you've just taken for granted.. 9. Realizing that you love the person you've just broken up with.. 10. Waiting for promises you know he'll never keep.. 11. Saying your love for someone who loves somebody else.. 12. Reminiscing the good times you shared together.. 13. Shielding your heart to love somebody.. 14. Trying to hide what you really feel.. 15. Having a commitment with someone that you know would not last.. 16. Trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from your eyes.. 17. Sharing the one you love with someone else.. 18. Loving a person so much.. 19. Giving up someone you never thought of giving up.. 20. Falling in love for the first time.. 21. PRETENDING you're OK but in inside you're dying.. 22. PRETENDING to be strong.. and RECOGNIZING your weakness.. 23. Lying in bed each night, thinking of that special person you can never have.. 24. Loving someone you haven't seen.. 25. Having the right love at the wrong time.. 26. Exerting effort to make the relationship last or work.. 27. Not being appreciated when you know you've given your best.. 28. Taking the risk to fall in love again.. 29. Hiding your relationship from someone else.. 30. Controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a friend.. 31. Choosing between 2 persons whom you really love.. 32. Seeing that person continue to be oblivious of your love.. 33. Turning down someone you love dearly but only as a friend.. 34. Finding out that you can never have the person you just let go of back. 35. Seeing the person you love with someone else. 36. Learning that the person who claimed to have loved you so much never really cared. 37. Seeing the one you love fall for someone else. 38. Falling for your best friend and knowing that the things can never be the same again. 39. Learning to trust after you have been betrayed. 40. Accepting that it was not meant to be. 41. Smiling when all you want to do is cry. 42. Falling and knowing that it can never be. 43. Not being able to love a person who truly cares for you. 44. Saying that you are over someone you still love. 45. Hearing that he can never love you the way that you love him. 46. Saying that you are over someone you still love. 47. Listening to her/him talking about the guy/girl she/he loves (which is not you) and seeing how her/his eyes light up as she/he does so.. 48. Seeing the guy/girl you love staring at a guy/girl who happens to be your friend while you're staring at him/her too.. 49. Agreeing to go out with the guy/girl you love but when you're at the place already, you do the most stupid thing ever by separating from him/her.. 50. Getting extremely developed over a guy/girl who's a friend and finding out that he/she likes your best friend.. 51. Seeing your best friend & the guy/girl you love together.. 52. Thinking of him/her every waking & sleeping moment knowing all the while that he/she never even thinks a single thought of u.. 53. Loving him/her more than he/she loves you.. 54. Letting go only to find out later on you shouldn't have let go because every time you see the person, you only fall deeper.. 55. Holding back only to find out when it's too late, you both felt the same way, but you're only scared to lose each other so much that you didn't let the feelings out.. 56. When the one you love doesn't even know you exist.
You know, love is just like someone waiting for a bus. When the bus comes, you look at it and you say to yourself "eeee...so full...cannot sit down, I'll wait for the next one." So you let that bus go and wait for the second bus. Then the second bus comes and you say, "eeee...this bus is so old...so shabby!" So you let that bus go and again, decide to wait for the next bus. After a while another bus comes, it's not crowded, not old but you say, "eeee... not air-conditioned ...better wait for the next one." So again you let the bus go and decide to wait for the next bus. Then the sky starts to get dark as it is getting late. You panic and jump immediately inside the next bus. It is not until much later that you found out that you had boarded the wrong bus! So you wasted your time and money waiting for what you wanted! Even if an air-conditioned bus comes, you can't ensure that the air-conditioned bus won't break down or whether or not the airconditioner will be too cold for you. So people... wanting to get what you want is not wrong. But it wouldn't hurt to give other people a chance, right? If you find that the "bus" doesn't suit you, just press the red button and get off the bus (as simple as that). Hey who said life is fair??? The best thing to do is be observant and open while you scrutinize the bus. If it doesn't suit you, get off. But you must always have an extra something which you could use for the next bus that comes. But wait... I'm sure you've had this experience before. You saw a bus coming (the bus you want, of course), you flagged it but the driver acted as if he did not see you and zoomed past you! It just wasn't meant for you! The bottom line is, being loved is like waiting for a bus you want. Getting on the bus and appreciating the bus by giving it a chance depends totally on you. If you haven't made a choice, WALK! Walking is like being out of love. The good side of it is you can still choose any bus you want... the rest who couldn't afford another ride would just have to be content with the bus they rode on. One more thing.... sometimes it's better to choose a bus you are already familiar with rather than gamble with a bus that is unfamiliar to you. But then again, life wouldn't be complete without the risks involved. But there's one bus that I forgot to tell you about - the bus that you don't have to wait for. It will just stop on its own and will ask you to come inside and take a free ride for the rest of your life. You Never Lose By Loving...You Always Lose By Holding Back
Don't date because you are desperate. Don't marry because you are miserable Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior. Don't philander because you think you are irresistible. Don't associate with people you can't trust. Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend. Don't dictate because you are smarter. Don't demand because you are stronger. Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough and know better. Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder. Don't sell yourself, your family, or your ideals. Don't live in the past. Time can't bring anything or anyone back. Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr/Mrs Right. Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr Wrong because your biological Sometimes, there is no race to be won. Only a price to be paid for some of life's more hasty decisions. To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless. To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy. To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy. Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons. To make yourself happy, pursue your passions and be the best of what you can be. Simplify your life. Take away the clutter. Get rid of destructive elements: abusive friends, nasty habits, Don't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty. Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family. Be true to yourself. Don't commit when you are not ready. Don't keep others waiting needlessly. Go on that trip. Don't postpone it. Say those words. Don't let the moment pass. Do what you have to, even at society's scorn. Write poetry. Love Deeply. Walk barefoot. Dance with wild abandon. Take care of yourself. Don't wait for someone to take care of you. You drive yourself to your destination. No one completes you - except YOU. It is true that life does not get easier with age. It only gets more challenging. Don't be afraid. Don't lose your capacity to love. Don't lose faith in your God. Don't grow old. Just grow YOU!
Dear Mommy,
I am in Heaven now, sitting on Jesus' lap. He loves me and cries with me; for my heart has been broken. I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite understand what has happened. I was so excited when I began realizing my existance. I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes. I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surroundings. I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping. Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me. Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you. Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry. I heard Daddy yelling back. I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon. I wondered why you cried so much. One day you cried almost all of the day. I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy. That same day, the most horrible thing happened. A very mean monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in. I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me. Maybe you never heard me. The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming, "Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me." Complete terror is all I felt. I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn't anymore. Then the monster started ripping my arms off. It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain. It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop. I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off. Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying. I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me. I wanted to make all your tears go away. I had so many plans to make you happy. Now I couldn't; all my dreams were shattered. Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all. I wanted more than anything to be your daughter. No use now, for I was dying a painful death. I could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you. I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand. And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead.I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place. I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone. The angel took me to Jesus and set me on His lap. He said He loved me, and He was my Father. Then I was happy. I asked Him what the thing was that killed me. He answered, "Abortion. I am sorry, my child; for I know how it feels." I don't know what abortion is; I guess that's the name of the monster. I'm writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl. I tried very hard to live. I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful. It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me. It was impossible to live. I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you. I didn't want to die. Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster. Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did. Please be careful.
Love, Your Baby Girl
RELATIONSHIP SABOTAGERS
Negative Criticism In this context, negative criticism is a generalized statement about your partner's overall character that places blame firmly in their court. For example, saying, "You are so lazy. This place is always such a mess!" is liable to make your partner feel blamed and attacked. A more healthy way to communicate this feeling as a specific complaint might be, "I feel like the kitchen is really a mess lately. I could really use your help to keep it clean."
Disdain If you let your bad feelings and criticisms of your partner build up over time, you may begin to feel real disdain for them. When this happens, you can end up resenting your partner on a very personal level. At such times, criticisms tend to become even more insulting. You may even begin throwing around harsh words in an effort to wound your partner. Imagine someone yelling at you, saying, "Why are you such an incredible slob? I can't believe I have to live in such a pig sty with a little piggy like you!" Ugly comments like these can really sting. If you find yourself saying cruel things that you'd never want turned around on you, try neutralizing your disdain by communicating a more specific, accurate complaint. Manipulating your partner with harsh words is sure to make matters worse.
Defensiveness When you or your partner feels personally attacked, you're likely to respond by being defensive. Strategies of defense include making up excuses, denying responsibility, retaliating with a counterattack, and whining. There are so many ways that a person can act defensively that it is difficult to say exactly how it may manifest in you or your partner. However, one thing consistent across different types of defensiveness is the feeling that you've been painted in a bad light and need to explain yourself or your actions. If you find yourself feeling this way, you can bet you are acting defensively. Although it can be hard, try to think objectively at times like these. Owning up to your responsibilities and making room for your partner's perspectives can go a long way to diffusing any dispute.
Non-participation When you, your partner, or both of you feel very attacked by the other, it can seem hopeless to try to defend yourself. At these times, you're likely to retreat rather than participating in either the argument or the relationship as a whole. During tough times, you can watch for this reaction in yourself and your partner. Nonparticipation tends to manifest itself through blank stares or disturbingly neutral behavior. They even may stop talking completely. Such behavior makes progress extremely difficult. RELATIONSHIP ENHANCERS
Respect By feeling proud of who your partner is and appreciating their achievements, you actually build a stronger foundation for your relationship. The more interested you remain in who your partner is as an individual, the more you will value and honor their presence in your life. This will make the two of you infinitely better as a couple.
Compassion When you understand your partner so fully that you can empathize with both their experiences and the reasons they do the things they do, you set the stage well to forgive them when they make a mistake in your relationship. Everyone makes errors once in a while. With compassion as your guide, you'll be more prepared to weather the inevitable sticky spots every couple faces.
Gratitude Try to spend a little time each day thinking of why you're grateful to have your partner in your life. If you make a conscious effort to feel gratitude for your partner and your relationship, you reaffirm the choice you made to share yourself with that person. When the going gets tough, you'll know why you're in your relationship and why it's worth the effort to maintain it.
 | 1. Fighting is bad for a relationship and often indicates bigger, underlying problems. False. Often, depending on a couple's relationship dynamic, important issues can surface and be resolved through periods of intense discussion or arguing.
2. Bickering poisons a relationship. Not necessarily. Some relationships flourish even with a constant stream of bickering. What is most important to a relationship is the intention behind the communication. If a couple bickers as a way to work out minor disagreements, it can be healthy for them. However, if the bickering is intended to hurt or criticize, it will likely erode the relationship.
3. Women are more comfortable with emotional discussions than men are. True. While it may sound sexist, research has shown that by and large, women are indeed more comfortable discussing emotions. Differences in the socialization of girls and boys appear to give women a leg up when it comes to understanding and confronting emotional issues.
4. The more often a couple has sex, the happier they will be. False. The amount of sex a couple has doesn't matter. What matters is that both people are happy with both the quantity and quality of sex in their relationship. In addition, the way a couple handles sexual problems when they arise will affect how happy they will be with their sex life.
5. If you have financial problems, your relationship is much more likely to break up. False. Relationships that are strong before financial difficulties, remain strong under monetary strain. In fact, these couples sometimes become stronger as they join together to face their problems. On the other hand, relationships that were weak to begin with tend to be torn apart by the additional pressure financial problems can cause.
6. Happy couples do not freely express their anger. False. Expressing anger when necessary is a sign of a healthy relationship. An unhealthy relationship will also express contempt and negative criticism along with anger. On the other hand, a healthy relationship will acknowledge the presence of anger without assigning blame. This allows relationship issues to be heard, understood, and dealt with.
7. Compatibility is the key to a successful relationship. True. The more compatible a couple is, especially when it comes to the way they communicate and handle difficulties, the more successful their union will be in the long term. |
Lessons in Love If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person’s heart. If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love him/her, feel honored that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage, do not cause pain. How you deal with love is how you deal with you, and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different. If you fall in love with another, and he/she falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame, let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time. Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away. Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in anyway you can. There is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them. The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as need. They cease to be someone who generates love and instead become someone who seeks love. They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away. Remember this, and keep it to your heart. Love has its own time, its own seasons, and its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into saying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you. But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do. Love always has been and always will be a mystery. Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life.
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